a party without guests...

Sigh... This is gonna be a long day for me. Yup, today's my birthday celebration and not much people are coming. I know I don't have to sulk all day about this little problem (actually it's not supposed to be a problem). It's just that I want them to come so they can meet each other, and stuff. Also, I want Meg and Geli to meet them. I've been telling them a lot about the people I'm with in school, and this is their only chance of meeting them.

Well, like what my dad said, the only important thing is that you invited them. You can't really expect that each and everyone of them will be that available.

Hmm... at least my high school friends would be there *grins*.

Chem. 16 Finals

It's out! The results from our second chem. exam last Saturday was handed out today. Now, I'm definitely, and will surely be, taking the chem. finals. I don't want to talk about my grade because aside from it really sucks, I've no idea how i'm gonna be able to pull it off to a grade of 2! Luck really isn't on my side this school year. Now i'd really have to work hard so as not to take it the second time this summer. Gosh, I really hate the feeling of knowing that something bad can happen anytime. Especially with my grades! Argh... But, past is past. Okay, now I really want to forget about it.

Change topic. We got new members for U.P.S.C. Hahaha. And we've got our first... umm... how am I suppose to say this... assignment (?). We're hoping it turns out, or rather, they turn out well.

My birthday celebration is this coming Saturday. I hope those I've invited would really come. It'll be a major disappointment if they don't. Plus, my highschool friends are also coming. Really wish they could make time in their busy schedules to come to the party. Haven't seen them for a long time. I really miss them.

Sigh. I'm not really feeling good today. Yeah, it's a chem. thing.

finally... it's over

Chem. 16 second exam was finally over last saturday. I tried to read through the given topics but one chapter takes a lot of my energy. And there were six or seven of them. I didn't get to finish all seven, maybe around 3-4 and all I really recall understandin was the first 2 chapters that I read. I even went to U.P. early that day just to be able to get the stdying mood on, but it didn't work... at all.

Today's Mitch's 18th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MITCH!

To everyone, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

Anyway, a lot's going through my mind right now. I want, very much, to do a lot of things but of course, there's always that problem called TIME. I can't seem to have enough of it to do things or maybe it's just my incapability to manage it well.

I love writing. I want to write about a lot of things , but writing doesn't seem to come naturally for me. I'm really not good, but I do want to improve my writing skills (if I even have one, sigh). Unlike other people who can sit and pour their hearts out with pen and paper, I spend a lot of time just thinking, trying to arrange and rearrange my ideas for coherence. Others can sit in one class period and come out with a peice worthy of being read, all I can within that given time are ideas...They've already written theirs down but I'm still sorting mine. I can improve, i know that. I'd just have to find the time to start having writing exercises.

Well, I'm off now. Got to go back to reality before it bites me... Sigh. I've really got to get a life.

first step

today's my birthday! i'm finally of legal age to do anything... almost anything. i'm writing at this hour just to be able to do something worth remembering on my birthday (or just for this day). i wasn't really excited about today... with all the schoolwork and stuff, i really didn't have that much time to have a countdown for my birthday. i even forgot that it was today if not for my youngest sister greeting me first thing this morning! i fell asleep last night, without intending to do so, so i practically woke up somewhat disoriented. i was trying to remember what was the last thing i did last night before i fell asleep (and what i missed to do from the plans i had. tsk! i never get to do anything right when i've planned it). i fell asleep with half my lower body on the bed and the other half on my computer chair. just imagine my position... thank goodness i didn't fall. after waking up, i practically walked out of my room to go to the bathroom with every intention of getting back to bed after to catch a 30-minute sleep (this time lying decently on my bed) before going to school. my sister was taking a bath at that time, and after she saw me walk out of the room, she greeted me happy birthday. i really was surprised. then i remembered that it was my birthday. haha... umm... just one thing i've really been expecting today was my papa's phone call. he hasn't called yet and i'm still hopin' he will (or maybe he'll just call on sunday... sigh) my celebration on the 19th. i know it's a long way from today but it's the only available date that my dad can come home, so, we're celebrating it next saturday. err... another thing i've been thingking of today... was my birthday gift! *grins* nevermind... my parents are still undecided about that.... but i am... and still they are thinking about it! i know what i want... but i guess i shouldn't expect much. sigh... well... still got some other things to do... just dropping by to greet myself...

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, AYEN* !!!

introducing...ordinary me!

sigh... at the moment i'm having a hard time convincing myself that i have to get up, reach for my chem. book, flip through the pages, and start reading/reviewing for my second exam this coming saturday. i know my grades are not that great (heck, i don't even know what's my class standing is!) but there's a really big possibility i won't be included in the 'exempted-from-the-finals' group of people this march. tsk! i think that's all i can say... for now (even my math is not that great). though i still have my hopes up... haha... that my grades would at least reach the required mark for exemption. i may not be doing great in my chem. lecture but my performance in the laboratory part is way (as waaaayy) better. we had our unknown analysis just this afternoon and i was able to get the needed elements. Hah! well... enough about shool stuff... i know it's getting borin already.

i guess i got on the wrong foot there... this is my first post and i'm already complaining about a lot of things! to cover for those, i'm ayen, 17 yrs. old (turning 18 in a couple of days!) currently a UP Dil BS-CE freshie. there's nothing much to expect from my posts, not that i'm discouraging anyone to read it but honestly it's all blah.blah.blah...babble.babble.babble.

i like to write stuff (when i have the time, and i'm currently in short supply of the standard 24-hours a day). maybe i can post some of them in here...

well, i think that's enough for my first post. i'm planning to pull an all-nighter but i'm not in the mood for writing. i'll try to make my succeeding ones better...

*WARNING: the owner of this blog talks nonesense most of the time, if not always, so please be reminded to bear with all her grumbles and moments of bliss about her undoubtedly monotonous life.

just a follow up... i did mention that i would want to share some of my... works. here's one...

The Moments of Reverie (things that make me loose track of time)

by: ayen*

Observing how leaves slowly drift away from the branches of a tree. Lying in bed late at night. Watching raindrops on windowpanes. Listening to the silence around as you lay your eyes on a vast horizon. Sitting alone in a place, staring at the moon and stars shining amidst the pitchblack sky.