there's nothing special...

I've talked with a lot of people, have compared myself to quite a number, and ended hating myself. For the past couple of years, I've considered myself to have an open mind, but stepping into college and mingling with people I don't often have an idea how their minds run, have proven me wrong. Yup, I may be receptive to new ideas but am really biased most of the time. (Oo, makitid ang utak ko!)

There are a lot of things that needs logical reasoning, social and moral explanations, and common sense. However, I don't think I have any of those. Well, let's just put it this way. I won't see the light if no one would tell me where it is. If no one would explain to me how things really work or what the other side of the story is. I'm pretty easy to manipulate, aren't I? I mean, my views in life changes as easy as one press on the TV remote to switch channels.

That's it! I really don't know where I stand. Yeah, like what they always say, I'm still trying to find myself. I just wish it'll be soon. Very, very soon. Just in time when it's not yet too late.

Sigh... I don't make much sense, don't I. Well, that has always been, and will always be, my problem.

I talk nonsense.